"So where
Do we go from here?
With all this fear in our eyes?
And where
Can love take us now?
We've been so far down
We can still touch the sky."

Yeah, it's totally a Chris Brown song, but the lyrics kind of portray my life as of now. My father lost his job again, and for the fourth time since January, I need to find a place to live. Finally, my family was together for a season in a very nice little house. Now we're broken apart again. I can say however, that I have found something very important while I've lived here for a mere three months. I have found my joy. Sheer joy and happiness. As strange as it seems, I've learned to find joy in the toughest of times.

In more petty news, I am still completely smitten for one of my managers. Everyone keeps asking me, "Oh my god. What if he makes a move on you?" But because of 'self depreciate' I don't think there's anyway he could possibly like me. He comes from a very rich side of Michigan and has a girlfriend with the orange tan and perfect hair - and perfect waist line to boot. I on the other hand am poor, have less then perfect hair, I'm pale and a little on the overweight side. I can see no reason for him to be attracted to me. AND that's beside the point ... I am friggin engaged. Nuff said.

... but gorsh he's beautiful.